scale of normalness.

I just tried on Inkblot Insanity Test. Got 6 out of 10 corrects for a score of 60% and 40% crazy. Mostly sane, but just barely.

Sane in latin, sanus, healthy, mentally sound especially; ability to anticipate and to appraise the effect of one's action. Meanwhile, insanity mostly associate with mental illness or derangement, lunacy, madness, mania and dementia. Whatever it is, i ask: have you ever check with yourself whether you are sane or insane? For your information, the signs and symptoms mentioned in various sources for insanity includes previous history of mental illness, previous history of drug or alcohol abuse, aggression, emotional liability, increased energy, elevated mood, suspicious mood, and commons are hallucination and delusions.

I am writing this due to my personal experience (not that i'm one of them) which I realised many people actually do not comprehend or understand people who suffered from insanity. Over the time they are consistently label as 'crazy'. It's rather insulting and rude. The story behind these, i got a friend, G was suffered from bipolar disorder i.e. maniac-depressive illness which is characterized by an alternating pattern of emotional high and low. G, constantly bully by people around him. They thought he is just wierd and silly. But to tell you the truth, he's a geek = genius. I see it myself when he did the computer thingy. Certainly, i'm not a medical practitioner who know anything about medication or treatment. But i know that while there is no known cure, treatment and medication can bring control of symptoms and hope to improve his quality of life. But what more important is to understand and giving them necessary support. By providing healthy environment certainly helpful to them. Meanwhile educating ourselves with relevant knowledge.

I remember G tells me that whenever i talk to him or willing to listen to him, he's comforted. I'm glad i did my lil' part. It maybe simple but it mean a lot to him. You see, all they need is care from the society and save them against the prejudicial perception. On one side we learn to care for others and the other side, we shall learn to balance and live a positive life. When we are happy, we are energetic and motivated. It's more possible for us to help others too.

Alright, my story ends here. Right now, at this moment i am sure a lot of my fellow friends are doing their best preparing for the coming exam. Whatever it is, expected the unexpected and be strong, hold steadfastly my fellow friends!

Here some words to feed our mind and for us to ponder; "It is not work that kills men, it is worry. Work is healthy; you can hardly put more on a man than he can bear. But worry is rust upon the blade. It is not movement that destroys the machinery, but friction."

Back: Interest or Parents?

I'm back to write on this little blog again. Counting 18 days exam is waiting for me. It's closer and sooner than i expected. Well, not to say i don't expect it...it's just a long-suffering wait. Like Mr. J says even if i am given 5 years to prepare, i will only doing it at the very last minutes. Sad to say, i'm naturally lazy bum with no strong will. But still believe on every little glimpse of hope :]

Alright, here something more interesting. On the night of 24 June, i received a call from Cee. Cee told me that she got enrolled into a good university with the course of her choice. But she told me that she was unhappy because her parents and friends criticized of her choice. Accordingly, i advice her and comforted her by saying,' everyone have a dream. After all dream is F.O.C. So nothing wrong to have good dream. In reality, our footstep of life will always come to a junction where we are to decide what path to take. Mos of the time the feeling of uncertain that creates uneasy feelings and problem of insecure. People will either supportive or opposing. But always remember the poem 'The Road Not Taken' by Robert Frost?" ..., our journey of life supposed to be an adventure and full of colours. Therefore, go ahead pursue your dream and live it with no regrets.' Honestly, those words are sincere. The thoughts cross my mind in that split seconds. I'm not sure how much i can assure her but that what i said to her.

I'm surprise when Cee's dad calls me and indirectly offended me by saying i'm wrong to say such words to her. He contends that pursue of dream can't feed you in future.

I don't deny that definitely cause me to have sudden doubt of myself. It made me think, am i standing at the wrong side too by misleading her? But i don't get it, if the parents already have something set on their mind, shouldn't them arranged everything for Cee at the first place. AND asking my opinion...For ****sake, it's an 'O-P-I-N-I-O-N'. No **** person can say other is wrong because of a fair opinion. We are born with different thought. "You can't call a dog bad and hang him!"

In the end, i am on the stand that Cee got to decide for herself and hold unwaveringly on her decision even if everyone bombard her with nuclear criticism.

What do you see?

Human beings are such complex creatures with the most sophisticate nature which almost impossible to specifically describe. In Il Principe (The Prince) by Niccolo Machiavelli, he mentioned of human nature.

According to Machiavelli, the greatest moral good is a virtuous and stable state, and actions to protect the country are therefore justified even if they are cruel. Machiavelli strongly suggests, however, that the prince must not be hated. And I quote one of my favorite phrase, "...a wise prince should establish himself on that which is his own control and not in that of others; he must endeavor to avoid hatred, as is noted." Although his theory dedicated to political theories and principles in order to achieve stable government but i found that it is much useful and practically applicable to our general life. You gain words of wisdom from him. In his book, Niccolo went in a great depths into analyze human nature in order to formulate his idea. He mentioned of integrity, mercy, honesty, humaneness...etc... somewhat disillusion. I notice that we only learn to hide our evilness. However, the ideas that we love according to our own will, we control because we fear and we are hated because we trespass others' interest still of relevant. I remember the most, learn and master the art of deceit then you are powerful. Niccolo attempts to justify the use of deceit and other vices by pointing out that other people are often dishonest and evil, and thus it is a prince's only choice to also be dishonest and not adhere to strict codes of propriety.

At this point, have you ever wonder what the people around you made of? Are they in sincerity or merely put up a mask to greet you everyday. Are we today living in a world of hypocrite?

Platonic or not platonic?

"My best guy friend and I were snuggled on his couch underneath a blanket when I realized that neither his girlfriend nor my boyfriend would be happy if they saw us -- and that our platonic relationship wasn't as platonic as we thought."Miss X, 24, XXX

As far as i concerned, this is what will happened when a guy and a girl having the best of their 'platonic' friendships. Having fun without realizing how far have they go. Surely, they will say that there is nothing between them. But think about it, without realizing the real meaning of platonic, confusion have set in. How far do you believe that a man and a woman can maintain in a platonic friendship? I'm very skeptic to those who is hypo-confidence in answering me optimistically.

According to M. Michael, Within the discipline of philosophy, "Platonic" generally is the adjectival form of Plato, thus pointing us directly toward him or any of his doctrines. But in day-to-day lingo, when someone says "platonic," what they're usually doing is setting it up as a contrast to sexual. By far the most common usage of the word "platonic" outside of philosophy circles is when it's referring to a friendship or relationship.

I would defined platonic friendship as to, involving, as a striving towards friendships of ideal beauty. Purely free from sensual desire. Based on this definition, it's quite difficult to be in a relationship with a member of the opposite sex , although i did not deny that guy and girl can be buddy. Still it is a difficult and tricky process.

I'm my humble opinion, it's a mammoth task for opposite gender to keep a friendship "platonic" especially after crossing the line of flirty landmines. Even after you realizing that you have step on the time bomb, 90% out of 100% you will still linger around it and happily enjoying the sinful but disastrous temptation. Sometimes, for newbies (without any experience) it's almost impossible to draw the line for them...unless he/she is born with super automatic platonic-boundary detector and with God mercy to be bless with a strong will.

Up to this point, certainly there are people disagree with me. But definitely they are entitled to express their thoughts on it. But as the matter of fact, experience had taught me that it is true whether you agree with me or not. So, that would be rude if you think that i am saying this without clear after thought. Prove to me that i am wrong. My advice, please... always keep your feelings check.

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At the moment of my life i am tired and frustrated. I'm upset and definitely down. It isn't easy when all matters accumulated on your shoulder. Of course i accept it as up and down of life.
I want to get back on track, but what i should do? Where do i start? If there is one thing i know, it have to be ME. I need to start with myself. Honestly, it isn't easy to eliminate negative emotion and be optimistic all the time. But what i have realised is that, i can't be happy simply by being unencumbered by stress and anxiety unless i'm healthy-emotional healthy. I think what is the most important now is to accept my own value and seek to grow with the never give up attitude. I'm inspired by Nick when he puts this, "What you doing when you fall down? You get back up. If you are not start walking, you won't get anywhere. Sometimes in your life when you are down, you don't want to swing and get back up...i would try 100 times to get up, and if i fail 100 times, if i fail and give up, do u think i will get up? No. But if i fail, i try again, and again and again... It's not the end. It matters how you gonna finish. Are you going to finish strong? You will find the strenght to get back up..."

Little Johnny: Letter to Santa

I came across this one beautiful written letter to santa. But it's rated 13PG and parental adversory. So pls...kid don't READ it unless you are 13 years old and above.

Letter to Santa

Dear Santa,

You must be surprised that I'm writing to you today, the 26th of December. Well, I would very much like to clear up certain things that have occurred since the beginning of the month, when, filled with illusion, I wrote you my letter. I asked for a bicycle, an electric train set, a pair of roller blades, and a football uniform.

I destroyed my brain studying the whole year. Not only was I the first in my class, but I had the best grades in the whole school. I'm not going to lie to you, there was no one in my entire neighborhood that behaved better than me, with my parents, my brothers, my friends, and with my neighbors. I would go on errands, and even help the elderly cross the street. There was virtually nothing within reach that I would not do for humanity.

What balls do you have leaving me a fucking yo-yo, a stupid whistle and a pair of socks. What the fuck were you thinking, you fat son of a bitch, that you've taken me for a sucker the whole fucking year to come out with some shit like this under the tree. As if you hadn't fucked me enough, you gave that little faggot across the street so many toys that he can't even walk into his house.

Please don't let me see you trying to fit your big fat ass down my chimney next year. I'll fuck you up. I'll throw rocks at those stupid reindeer and scare them away so you'll have to walk back to the fucking North Pole, just like what I have to do now since you didn't get me that fucking bike. FUCK YOU SANTA. Next year you'll find out how bad I can be, you FAT-SON-OF-A-BITCH.

Sincerely,
Little Johnny

So, do you enjoy reading this?

Peanut?

A girl told her mommy that the boy next door penis like a peanut.

Mommy: Do you mean it is small?

Girl: No, it taste salty.